trascendence to the epitome

Choices

2011-10-22T09:14:00.004+08:00

In case the picture is not clear, that's the online application for admission to UTP for postgradute. I have been filling this form for 3 times already but haven't got the guts yet to submit, and I am still not sure. This is dad's idea, of course.

Time for Solat Istikharah, I think.

Imaginary

2011-07-26T22:27:00.000+08:00

This blog is dead. Boo :(

I Wish That I Could Have This Moment For Life

2011-05-30T15:47:00.002+08:00

I feel young and carefree again, something that I havent felt for a long time;

Naj, Irah, Wani

:)

p/s : Manukan Island, 30th May 2011

I Miss,

2011-05-20T22:59:00.004+08:00

p/s : gambar xmengekot turutan.

Hal Merajuk

2011-05-07T23:29:00.003+08:00

5-10 months in the relationship;

W : oh.
K : merajuk ke? hu.
W : huhu.. aah nak merajok..
K : sorry sayang.. jom kte jumpe.. nk pujuk sayang.. bagi adiah..

11-20 months in the relationship;

W : *membebel panjang*
K : huhu... I'm sorry.. what can I do to make it up to you..
W : *merajuk*
K :
W : xde pujuk pun.
K : yela2, sorry k..

after 21 months in the relationship

W : Ok.
K : Knp? Nak majok ke?
W : Aah.
K : Oke..
W : Xkisah ke?
K : Asek nak majok je..

DAH.

Without You

2011-05-07T22:03:00.003+08:00

In this 4 months of working I've been;

-working my ass off day and night just to get stomach ulcer (after that, learnt my lesson, reserve nighttime only for myself not work)

-having problems with my subordinates which led to their dismissals

What I can comment on working in the managerial level : DIFFICULT

I am better at handling and organizing stuff rather than organizing people. There are many kinds of people with many kinds of issues. But it is not professional for me to publicly blog further about the details of the story. So that's that.

p/s : Firing people is never pleasant but if the worker made him/herself a liability not an asset then we have to let them go, sekda jodoh orang kata.

Lovesick

2011-04-24T23:20:00.001+08:00

when i miss you, i close my eyes and i can see that person better
i try to forget and erase, but i get reminded of that person more
i told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
that person never said that he will be coming back, but all i can do is wait

the sin of loving that person a lot, the sin of loving you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im sick of waiting
the sin of loving you more, the sin of missing you a lot
because of you, and because of sin, im crying with pain..like this

i told myself a lie thinking that that person would come back
that person never said that he will be coming back, but all i can do is wait

breaking up is fast, but forgetting is hard
the love is painful, and i am hurt alone

p/s : rose, aku da addicted gak da..

Strangers, again.

2011-04-23T14:59:00.003+08:00

Some will make it through, some will not. Let's just hope for the best, and try as hard as we can to make it through.

p/s : from Wong Fu Productions

Everywhere

2011-04-20T21:25:00.002+08:00

Guess who came for a visit last weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!

Datang balik cpt2! I miss you.

p/s : dah berjanggut.

MC

2011-03-29T13:13:00.001+08:00

You know you are already old when;

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel old

-you feel extremely tired and old

p/s : pointless. Hari ini saya cuti sakit yaw. But still have to do work at home.

Jesselton

2011-03-27T14:48:00.004+08:00

p/s : foreveralone-blog.blogspot.com

Signature

2011-03-06T13:01:00.006+08:00

I am sure all of us have changed our signatures from time to time. I was renewing my ATM pin the other day (because I forgot my ATM pin) and need to sign some forms. So I used my current signature but it was not accepted because my signature when I signed up for the account was different.

I mean, I was only 13 yrs old at that time. Apa2 pun, everything went well and I got a new ATM card. (After more than 4 months not being able to withdraw money from my account, Ha ha)

My signature when I was 13. (Not so accurate). But acceptable. When I was 13 I just signed however I want, and it must be a fancy one, which explains the curly style.

This, I am sure, my UTP friends are familiar with. I changed my signature because I need an easy signature, for my friends to sign the attendance list whenever I can't come to class. Hiks2.

This one is the most recent signature. Haha. I have to change my signature when I joined the working world, especially since I need to sign papers, docs, letters to government agencies and stuff. So I discarded the childish signature of my name and made a new one. Oh, another important thing is it must be easy to forge too, in case other staffs need me to sign any papers but I was not available.

p/s : Going back home next week. Can't wait!

TIGA.

2011-02-27T11:04:00.002+08:00

Ya, saya ingin mengumumkan di sini... Kami telah berkahwin! Hahahahaha :P

Lelaki berbaju putih tu saya punya hero. Dia sgt hensem dan macho. Dia juga seorang yg penyayang dan sweet. Ramai perempuan terpikat kat dia. Tapi nasib baik dia xlayan sorg pun. (Kalo layan, siap!!) hik3...

Dalam tiga tahun kami bersama nie, dia mmg byk bersabar dgn kerenah saya and manja saya. Saya tahu saya byk kekurangan, tapi dia tak pernah guna kelemahan saya itu utk jadi alasan meninggalkan saya.

Saya sgt sayang hero saya.

Selamat ulangtahun kita yang ke-3 :)

Twenty5

2011-01-31T20:41:00.007+08:00

Gila lamak xpost in here. My hands have been itching for weeks to write something, tho, but I havent got the time. So, thanks Anis for tagging me! :

"Once you have been tagged,you are suppose to write a note, with 25 random thing, fact, habits or goal about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tag you, it's because I want to know more about you. Your cooperation is highly appreciated."

1) I can't ride a bicycle. Trust me. Jgn gelak k!!!!

2) I am a sucker for good food. I spend so much money on good food. More than I spend on my clothes, accessories, bags and stuffs,

3) If I am really upset, my temperature will rise and my body will feel hot. So if you happen to touch me, and it feels like I'm running a fever when I don't look sick, it means I am upset.

4) If I am really upset, and on the verge of crying, I will feel more emotional if someone is very kind to me, and I will cry instantly. So, kalo aku tgh upset, biarkan je aku, nnt kalo pujuk aku makin upset and nangis.

5) I like the smell of the people that I adore, like my boyfriend, or my cat (ok, maybe my cat is not a person, but she's my baby)

6) I don't cry easily in front of people, even in front of my close friends. If I cry in front of you, it means that I am hurt, real baddd

7) I have been doubting my capability as a real engineer.

8) I have been upset a lot lately and it's because of my work.

9) When I get really nervous, the gastric will come and I will get really really sick (vomit)

10) I always try my best to be as punctual as I can. Because I believe that one of the attributes that can make you successful is punctual.

11) If do things in a rush, I will get dizzy. Like literally.

12 ) I am not a tidy person, nor am I selekeh. I am in between.

13) I never know how to dress as pretty as my friends.

14) I have this problem with my body, a big tummy, since God-knows-when.

15) And I also wish that I have a different physical appearance, more matured, not a child like appearance. This body is not really useful especially when you need to gain people's trust and respect when u are an engineer. Argh!! Not gemok tho.

16) I depend a lot on my dad, which I have to change and start living on my own.

17) My siblings are bigger than me, except for my 11 years old brother who is already almost the same height as me.

18) My mother is smaller than me, making her the smallest in the family.

19) I have lots of guy friends, but I only have one close guy friend, and one bestest guy friend.

20) I don't really open up to people even my close friends. I am scared of letting people down, and people letting me down.

21) I have this favourite bolster, that I have since I am 13 years old. I call it 'bantal busuk'.

22) I am not lady like. And I am not a tomboy. I am in between.

23) I get sleepy and comfy when someone play with my hair. But not everyone can touch my hairrr

24) I like fantasy books. Harry Potter, Twilight, etc. But not Lord of The Ring tho. Seriously boring. Chick lits are second.

25) I once used the land line to call my then boyfriend and friends. My parents have to pay app. Rm1k. Huehue.

____________________________________________________________________

It's been 5 weeks since I updated. I miss my classmates and my life in UTP already. Having read their blogs, I realized there's so much that I have been missing in these 5 weeks.

I am doing good, tho I constantly say that I have no money and no job, I actually have been helping my father with his IBS Trainings. And get a few hundred bucks from every training that I handled. Since this IBS Trainings can also be included in the construction category, I have been meeting all kinds of people from the construction world. The participants of the trainings are mostly contractors, or contractors wannabe or Civil engineering final year students, and most of them are older than me.

When I was a civil engineering student, I never fully understood how difficult it is being a female engineer. Having to face the prejudice and all. Esp when my physical appearance is like this. When I went for training in a construction company, my supervisor gave me this to answer "What are the obstacles of being a female engineer?"

I have no idea what to answer at that time. I only answered based on my logic.

But now, I am glad to give him a few pages of answer for this question.

I got a job in KK, Sabah, which will start this weekend. I am kinda nervous (not the sick and vomit level), that I am going there by my own, not having my father by my side and guide me like he did these past few weeks. I will basically do the same thing like I did here, plus managing the company. Planning to invite boyfriend to come to KK for a visit later on too.

I guess I will face the same thing too in KK, and I have to find away to make people see me as their trainer, or as their manager, not a fresh grad kid who earns nothing to be in that position.

I know this will be over after months of experience.

Chayo wani!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, before I forget;

Latihan Kemahiran Installer IBS
Light Weight Blockwork System
16-20 Januari 2011

Hehe.

p/s : This evening, I randomly asked the mobile shop man what age do I look like, and do I look like a kid to him. He said maybe. huh.

Note to self : Don't get to obsessed with this.

Distance

2010-12-24T09:16:00.002+08:00

Nnt skype lagi. I miss you :)

Undefined

2010-12-15T14:30:00.003+08:00

Let me illustrate to you how I thought my career path would be;

end of 2005

2007-2010

end of 2010.

So, one step at a time now, shall we?

p/s : no more school. What now?

You, you, you and you

2010-12-09T21:19:00.020+08:00

I have a lot of catching up to do.

People have been leaving UTP one by one. Some I get to say goodbye for the last time, and some I did not. I am not good with words lately, so

Thank you so much;

to my housemates - Sal, Irene, Syuhada, Mype, Ned, Naj, Sher, Deng, Ina, Rin (not in the picture) and Enoi - for the fantastic year of sharing the house with you guys, you guys are seriously the most awesome housemates EVERRR

to Naj and Enoi, comrades, partners in crime for the past 5 years. I had the greatest time spent with you guys, gossiping, watching movies, take tons of pictures, not forgetting skipping classes and byk lagiklah. Thank you for making my life in UTP wonderful. Will miss you loads!

to Ned, my roommate, thank you for putting up with me and my 'temperaments' (esp my sarcasm, tho I dont mean it most of the time). haha.. and also for putting up with my staying up most nights making it hard for you to sleep with the lights on, but got used to it after sometime. Haha. Thank you Ned!!

to Weda, one of the most caring person I have ever met, thank you for being a great friend and a great confidante, rindu nak gossip2 ngn ko!!

to As, Siti, Nema and Pika (not in the picture) for the few last moments spent in West Malaysia (cey) as students. Had great times with you guys!! Nnt buat lg ye trip jalan2

to Rafi and Rose, for the double dates, couple things, hehe wont forget the times we spent together be it as couples or not, kawen nnt jgn lupe jemput :) dah2, jgn sdeh ye.. aku pun rindu korg gak nnt.. hahaha

to Aida, Edy, Husna, Dayah, Ada, Dya, Nad, Nana, Anis, Farha, Syara, Ami and Daa (not in the pictures) for the memorable times for the past 5 years us being classmates, and thank you too for the assignments you guys let me copy (haha), thank you so much!!

to Bali, my loyal chatting mate from 3rd year up until now. Tahan gak ko ye ngn perangai aku. haha.. Thanks bro. And also thanks for the free meals haha

and to others, whose name I havent mentioned yet, being in the same class with you guys was really the best :)

to Mr. Mubarak, my fyp daddy and Farha and Azim, my fyp brother and sister, thank you for your guidance for me to make it until the end. I cant thank you enough.

to Abg Johan and Abg Hafiz, thanks for your help and assistance for my final year project in the lab. You guys rock!

to Petronas (mana boleh lupa nie), my sponsor, thank you for the financial support, hehe

to my parents, two of the most important people in my life, thank you for the support you have given me all my life, you guys are the best and I will always make you proud of me, cant wait to see you!

and last but not least, to my dearie, cant thank you enough for all the things u have done for me, for saving me, for putting up with me, for loving me and byk lagi. I will miss you so much. Huhu....

You may see that I am a bit reluctant and haste in saying goodbye to you guys but it's not because I dont care, it's because I hate goodbyes esp when we will not see each other for a long time. Take care and keep in touch ya.

p/s : some of the pics I took from facebook profiles hope you dont mind :)

Careful

2010-10-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

Michelle Featherstone - Careful

It's the little things
They pulled me in and I'm defenseless
I try to ignore like I've done before but it's just useless

I've made up my mind that I'm gonna let you in
And I'm not afraid but I have to say

This is gonna hurt if it ever ends
But somehow you have shattered my defense
This is gonna hurt if it ever starts
So promise you'll be careful with my heart

It's the things you do
They made me fall hard for you and I can't help it
And it's every day that I feel this way
So just don't stop it

I've made up my mind that I'm gonna let you in
And I'm not afraid but I have to say

This is gonna hurt if it ever ends
But somehow you have shattered my defense
This is gonna hurt if it ever starts
So promise you'll be careful with my heart

I won't make excuses
They just all seem useless
You don't have the time
I guess I'll take my chances now that I know love is on the line

This is gonna hurt if it ever ends
But somehow you have shattered my defense
This is gonna hurt if it ever starts
So promise you'll be careful with my heart

Careful with my heart

p/s : <3

Early Age

2010-10-12T20:07:00.005+08:00

Alhamdulillah, achieved the first stage of self compacting concrete today.

p/s : Fikirkan boley!
p/p/s : Happy Birthday Muja :)
p/p/p/s : Get well soon Anis :)

Terkial-kial Macam Sial

2010-10-11T15:07:00.009+08:00

Today is the shittiest day of my life because

-slept at 5am and woke up at 9am because were so nervous fearing that everything will go wrong again (and damn i was right) and i went straight to the lab although my head was literally up in the clouds

-wasted 5 hours for fyp which resulted into nothing
in fact, i wasted the whole semester for the goddamn project

-got mad at by boyfriend for no reason

-have to accept the fact that my fyp is doomed.

-there's only one thing left to do. which I despise the most. but I am desperate

and oh, my music player was randomly on travis - 'why does it always rain on me' while in the lab. ironic much?

p/s : kena buat solat hajat

ANGUISH

2010-10-07T23:11:00.005+08:00

That, my friends, is me. And probably you, too.

p/s : Penat aku melukis guna power point. Esok ada test belom study pa2. Oklah

Puisi Sepi

2010-10-05T20:05:00.002+08:00

Bisik ku pada bulan
Kembalikan temanku

Kekasihku, Syurgaku

Tanpa dia malam menemaniku
Sepi memelukku

Bulan jangan biar siang biar malam ini kelam
Biar ia sepi sepertiku

p/s : aicey...

Eid ul Fitr

2010-09-13T09:36:00.003+08:00

Maafkan kamek if kamek ter..

kaco lebeh-lebeh

makan makanan lebeh-lebeh

cucok perut sampe sakit

kasar bahasa

tetak lebeh-lebeh

bulak

mungkir janji

sik tegur

and macam-macam lagik..

Mintak ampun dan maap dari ujong rambut ke ujong kaki~

..............Selamat Hari Raya!

Kuching-ing

2010-09-06T00:05:00.002+08:00

Pardon me for not updating much when at home. It is just that I enjoyed it here, and don't bother to go online

p/s : let us spend these last few days of fasting wisely <3

Friends

2010-08-31T01:58:00.004+08:00

It was at that moment, when you defended me eventho u and I know I am the one who shud take the blame in the first place, that I feel better,

Thank you. <3

Seven Types

2010-08-21T23:54:00.001+08:00

Just want to share;

Always wondered why some guys always manage to get the best of girls?

Well, the secret is not good looks or a well-defined six pack, but the fact that women simply get attracted to certain personality traits and flock to men who possess them.

Below are seven of these "ideal types" of guys that women are drawn to, and an explanation as to why these guys are so appealing, reports Fox News .
The list could help you understand what women are looking for, and most importantly, to make sure that you fit the bill.

The Romantic Guy
He believes in classic romance. He is constantly bringing her flowers and chocolate and lighting candles during dinner. He calls her often to let her know he is thinking about her and looks into her eyes and tells her how he feels.

Why he is so irresistible: A woman loves to feel appreciated, and the romantic guy makes this happen. He uses romantic gestures to show her he is thinking about her. As an added bonus, she feels free to reciprocate and act on her own romantic tendencies.

The Confident Guy
He is totally secure and sure of himself. He is assertive in public and gives off an aura of power and control. In a relationship, he doesn''t get jealous of other men; he doesn''t feel threatened by his girlfriend''s male friends or co-workers.

Why he is so irresistible: Women are attracted to confident men. Consider this: If you think you are great, she will probably be influenced to think the same. The confident man doesn''t seek approval from women, and this makes them want him even more.

The Artistic Guy
The artistic guy is spontaneous and lives for the moment. Often, he will use his creativity to woo her, such as with a song he has written about her or a painting he has made for her.
Why he is so irresistible: Every woman wants to feel unique and special. There is no better way to make her feel this way than to use her as your muse or your source of inspiration. She is intrigued by the artistic guy''s creative mind and especially by the way he incorporates her into his art.

The Foreign Guy
He comes from a faraway exotic country and he might have a cute accent or a unique way of seeing the world. His social customs and everyday behaviour can be a little quirky, but he always manages to come off as uniquely charming.

Why he is so irresistible: Women often choose this kind of guy if they are curious about the world, but most of the appeal comes down to a fascination with dating someone from another culture.

The Free Spirit Guy (aka the Bad Boy)
The free spirit guy goes where the wind takes him - and the wind usually takes him on some kind of wacky adventure. He might ride a motorcycle, or he might skip work to take her on a last-minute road trip, but this guy doesn''t worry too much about the consequences- he just sees where his own devices take him.

Why he is so irresistible: Every woman wants a bit of a rebel. She loves his carefree attitude and hopes that it will rub off on her too. The bad boy spirit adds an element of youthfulness to the relationship and she loves to try taming him, although she knows she''ll never actually succeed.

The Intelligent/Witty Guy
He instigates conversations that are intellectually stimulating and listens to what she has to say in response. He makes her laugh with his clever sense of humour and has an uncanny ability to make politics interesting. He can shoot the breeze with her for hours and it will never get boring.

Why he is so irresistible: An intellectual connection is a big part of what sustains a relationship and if you can show her that you''ve got that, she''ll be hooked pretty quickly.

The Considerate Guy
He holds open her car door and pulls out her chair. He foots the bill for dinner and makes sure to offer her dessert. He always asks her out with reasonable notice and picks her up at her door. He is generally sensitive to how she is feeling and when she is ready to go home.

Why he is so irresistible: Once a woman has gone through her share of the bad guy, the rude guy and the not-calling-her-back guy, she will likely re-evaluate her priorities. It takes a bit of maturity on her part to realize this, but eventually most girls come around and realize that they want a guy who will treat them well in the long run.

But, think twice before copying any of the above character types, for women can know when you are faking it

p/s : http://forceindya.com/content/seven-types-guys-women-cant-resist-0

Destination

2010-08-16T13:24:00.006+08:00

Uwaaa... ensemmm... uwaaaa hahaha..... Kim Hyun Joong.................

p/s : nangga jak walaupun xpaham

150 Juta

2010-08-14T00:33:00.002+08:00

I miss you, I miss us

Just The Way You Are

2010-08-13T05:58:00.003+08:00

This song is so sweet kan. Mcm tipu jak ada orang mcm tok. Too good to be true

Happy Fasting everyone. <3

I Miss You

2010-08-05T02:10:00.002+08:00

Don't let me browse thru our old photos again. Waaa...

I miss you Dena & Nora

Chasing Pavements

2010-07-25T09:03:00.001+08:00

I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, I know this is love

But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you

I build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

Update Atau Tidak Same Saje

2010-07-20T07:55:00.001+08:00

Sakit. Rumah.

Dearest

2010-07-06T22:33:00.002+08:00

miss u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Only Exception

2010-07-01T00:09:00.001+08:00

Love this song. Very much.

Baru Baru

2010-06-27T16:48:00.003+08:00

Finally, after months having to live without a pair of decent spectacles (thought of trying contacts but the optometrist did not recommend me wearing contacts because of my astigma something something), I finally get a new one. And its in purple and pink.

Saya mahu show off sikit ya;

Abaikan rambut serabai.

Haha, thats all folks

Wish Right Now

2010-06-22T14:11:00.005+08:00

Dengan ini saya mengisytiharkan saya telah tag diri sendiri dari blog Rose. Mekaseh Rose kerana menyumbang idea mengupdate blog nie :p

1. Gmbr beg yg korg selalu bawak. sertakan jenama, kegunaan dan riwayat beg tersebut

beg jenama apa? MNG
kegunaan beg ni? to put my essentials in when I go out
riwayat beg? bought in in March. still quite new hehe......

2. Pandangan dekat beg tersebut

eh salah

3. Isi dalam beg

My wallet of 5 years
Camera
Two types of flu tablets (this one is important)
Body Shop perfume
Pins purse (I bring lots of extra pins and brooches)
Coins purse
Handphones
An unknown key
Keychains
Coins (yes, I have a coins purse but the coins are still scattered around)
Car keys

4. Tag sesape?

I wanna know anis's, farha's, aeda's, syara's, zima's, cocoq's, illi's, dena's, nora's and amal's bag's content ;p

Happy Birthday!

2010-06-04T01:17:00.001+08:00

Happy 22nd Birthday to my dearest Kamal
May all your wishes come true.

Tonight I will be handing him his present!

p/s : No, it wont spoil the surprise coz I know he wont be reading this until tomorrow. ^_* credit to Ernina for the ideas

2010-06-01T17:38:00.001+08:00

Emmmmmm lost confidence in blogging

A dose of you

2010-05-17T19:08:00.005+08:00

Exam week.

Anyhoos, my current crushhh;

p/s : This is just one of the videos in his blogtv. You should check out his singles

Relationshits

2010-05-12T22:12:00.003+08:00

One day,

one day you will see that I am right and I wont need to say "I told you so"

Takkan Pernah Bisa

2010-05-09T03:34:00.000+08:00

Semakin dalam ku merindukanmu
Semakin jauh kau pergi dariku
Semakin jauh ku mencintaimu
Semakin dalam kau hancurkan aku
Aku tak kan pernah bisa
Bersama, bersama, bersamamu
Ku tak kan pernah bisa
Semakin jauh ku mencintaimu
Semakin dalam kau hancurkan aku

p/s : by Alexa

Liar Liar Pants On Fire (#2)

2010-04-29T15:31:00.002+08:00

Top 10 lies women tell men;

1. "I don't care how much money you have."

It has been proven that women want a guy who is financially stable and independent. They aren't all looking for a sugar daddy; they just want to know that their man is capable of taking care of a potential future family. Of course, your girlfriend probably won't tell you this so as not to scare you off with discussions about family and the future.

Advice: Tricky one if you don't have cash, but try and put a little aside when you can and she'll think you're fantastic.

2. "It doesn't bother me when you check out other women."

It's quite simple: She wants to feel like you only have eyes for her but will lie because she doesn't want it to look that way. She wants to appear to be open-minded but is actually upset when you check out the hot blonde in the supermarket.

Advice: You're better off not letting your eyes wander too often if you don't want it to blow up in your face when you least expect it.

3. "You're right."

Normally rears its ugly head at the argument which ends with her telling you that you were right. Don't believe her? Even if she realizes she's wrong, chances are slim to none that she'll actually admit it. The fact is that many women will tell you that you're right to shut you up, but what they're really thinking is: "He'll find out soon enough that I'm right." Then she'll proceed to find some devious way to prove her point.

Advice: Be prepared for the devious ways and have your argument all ready, again so she can't catch you unawares.

4. "I won't get mad if you say I look fat."

Not so much a lie as a trap. No matter what you say, she will get angry. If you try to tell her that she looks great, she'll accuse you of lying to make her feel better, on the other hand, if you tell her that she has, in fact, put on a couple of pounds, you're likely to set off a war in your living room.

Advice: The only way to deal with this situation (short of faking a heart attack) is to brace yourself and wait until the monsoon passes.

5. "I love sports."

Ah, another first date classic as she searches for a common interest. But unless you're lucky enough to have found one of the rare true female sports fans out there, within a few weeks, she'll probably be complaining every time you sit down to watch a game. This lie really sucks because it feeds false hopes in the minds of unsuspecting men.

Advice: I wish there was some advice to give, but sorry guys your dreams of curling up with a six-pack and a hot woman to watch the game with are probably going to forever remain pure fantasy.

6. "I don't mind picking up after you."

Once again, this is a lie your girlfriend might tell you at the beginning of your relationship. She'll say that she really doesn't mind picking up the dirty dishes you leave lying around and that she just loves doing the laundry. I hate to break it to you, but this isn't going to last either. Soon enough, she'll be telling you to wash your smelly socks yourself and that it's your turn to do the dishes.

Advice: Keep the place tidy (well tidier) and she may not complain too loudly.

7. "I love hanging out with your friends."

She might like your friends but she won't want them around her all the time. This is the kind of lie you get early on in a relationship but it doesn't mean you'll get away with a four hour poker session round your place every Saturday night.

Advice: Try to keep friends visits to a minimum and she might keep pretending she likes them.

8. "I wouldn’t change anything about you"

A woman can say this until she’s blue in the face. And in one way – she usually means it. But not in the way that means she loves how you leave the toilet seat up or spill cheese sauce on your T-shirt.

She means that she likes you and appreciates many different aspects of your personality. Rest assured; she doesn’t love or even like everything. There are bound to be some things about you that drive her stark-raving mad. But because she likes you, she’s not going to mention them.

Advice : Think about what would annoy you if you're positions were reversed. Fix those things. Aim to never hear this again.

9. “I’ll be ready in a minute.”

Listen, if before you left the house to go out on a date, you had to shower, shave half your body, slather yourself in moisturizer, apply 99 overpriced products, put on several layers of makeup, flat-iron your hair, pick out the perfect outfit that makes you look sophisticated/sexy/spectacular, it would take you a long time to get ready, too. So, wait.

10. “That was delicious!”

If you cooked, we don’t care how it tastes. We will tell you we love it. Love us for that.

p/s : http://www.thefrisky.com/post/246-the-top-10-lies-women-tell-men and http://www.supanet.com/mens-room/what-are-the-top-10-lies-women-tell-men-25292p1.html

Something To Believe In

2010-04-27T00:20:00.007+08:00

The time spent in KL was the best;

Highlighted events @ KL last weekend (chronologically) :
- Missed our train to KL, so we have to catch the bus
- Entered the KLCC office at level 18 for the first time. Jakun bah
- Went to KTV karaoke, but the rooms were full and got waiting list
- So decided to go to uptown at Danau Kota
- Enoi's stitches got worse and ruptured, made her injured finger all bloody so had to go to clinic (at 3am), and oh had to pay RM40+
- Went shopping at Jalan TAR. We were soooo kun faya kun (jakun)
- At night, went to Bukit Ampang / Look Out Point / Bukit Saga / Bukit Indah to have a nice view of the city. Had dinner at Bread & Olives with boyfriend and his friends
-The next day went to Sungei Wang, and we were kun faya kun again coz the clothes are like so cheap

But boohoo to us coz when we arrived at UTP, the workloads are waiting....

p/s : Thanks for the memories guys

Phases

2010-04-16T22:22:00.003+08:00

Before I get to the point, I just want to mention about the blog's background and header. Meant to make it look like a 22-years-old's-blog-who's-matured-yet-still-fun-to-be-with. But it turned out to look less "matured" than I thought it would be. Oh wth.

You see, Ive been thinking about the times that I have spent with boyfriend, from the time we got to know each other well and became best friends until this point where he is my boyfriend of 2 years. And also compared ourselves with the other couples. (I always talk about relationships and love stuffs, so boring, kan)

So I figured that everyone involved in relationships (I mean like, boyfriend and girlfriend relationships) has gone through, will be going through, are going through : the relationship phases;

[5-6 months]
I call this phase, The "honeymoon" Phase :p Anyway during this phase, you will feel like he is the best thing that has ever happened to you, love him to bits, you feel over the moon most of the times, smile or laugh at his jokes eventho it is obviously stupid, he will gladly call you almost every night, not to mention the good mornings and good nights every single day and he do sweet things to woo you and exchanging gooey eyes with each other is normal and all the cheesy metaphors are true. Even the things that usually annoys you, will be adorable when he does them.

[9-14 months]
And this phase is called The "after-honeymoon" Phase (hahah, siyes, sekda idea). After knowing him well, you will start to get comfortable with him, you tell him everything, from the things that going on in your family up to the things that your friends tell you (i.e gossips). You will start to notice each other's flaws and mistakes and this is the phase where you learn how to love everything about your partner including his flaws. And this is the time where you will argue with each other occasionally if not often :p so, both of you have to learn how to give and take, and there's this saying mentioning about dont lose the one u love just because you are too ego blablabla..

[15-20 months]
The "you're-my-boyfriend-so?" Phase. hahah. Up to this time, you guys have gotten so used to each other that farting or digging your nose in front him doesnt really matter (because he once told you, whatever you do, you will still look cute, so, yeah). The occasional arguments are still there and it will get worse if you still havent learnt how to give and take. (Frankly speaking, I think I havent, but boyfriend has so its kinda fine :p love u boyf, no hard feelings k). And you even dont mind sharing your toothbrush with him. And oh, the phone call every night? The number of calls will decrease as time passes by. You can be considered lucky if you are still receiving calls at least 3-4 times every week.

But there are still those sharing of gooey eyes, those cheesy love metaphors, the sweet things that he do, or the little things about you that he knows because he paid attention (when you think he was not), or how much he knows about you.. ;)

Yeah well, other people may have different experiences or different phases. This is just my assumption generally on how relationship goes on

[20 - infinity]
Ok, I have only experienced relationships until the last phase :p so I can just go this far

Wanna be happy like this when I am old (if I live long enough to be old).

Not like this

p/s : The contents of this post is not related to anyone (maybe 1000x) :)

Big Deal?

2010-04-12T01:17:00.007+08:00

Disclamation : This post contains a lot of whines

You know, being a final year is distressing;

Initial thought "Ooh, I will be a final year student soon, I can bully the juniors, I can be and look superior because I am the senior, people will have to respect me, I will have more free time because there will be less classes and only final year project to focus on"

Yeah right. So much of the free time. Have to spend your free times in the lab doing labour works, and if you're lucky got someone to help you (in my case, boyfriend and housemates). Ok fine, not all those final year projects require you to go to lab and do heavy stuffs, there also those topics where you can develop software, things blablabla. But frankly, I dont regret in choosing my FYP topic because I prefer working with something substantial rather than working on software, but then, both categories are difficult.

That is only the beginning, being a final year student you have to think about your plans for the future, what you are going to do as soon as you step out of the uni and if you want to continue with your education, take MSc.

People would be thinking us Petronas scholars would be guaranteed with jobs at the Petronas but no, we actually have to attend some sort of tests, interviews and stuffs. And being a final year student means you would be worrying about who will employ you (if Petronas decides not to hire you) and how you would survive in the scary world out of the uni since you have been comfortable inside the compounds of uni, everything provided to you, given to you.

And oh, not to mention your parents expectation on you. Especially for the first childrens.

So you see how distressing it is being a final year student?? *hyperventilate* I bet my classmates will say the same thing too.

Ok, so I should stop worrying about the future and first decide if I would want to continue and take MSc instead of going straight into the industry.

Pros of taking MSc;
-Higher education
-Higher pay
-Higher standards (wow)

Cons;
-Studying, dunno if I can take more of that
-Stuck in uni for at least a couple of years in addition
-You have to do extensive research and be hardworking

Talked to mom about this, she said "You dont have to worry about working life yet, what you should consider is if you still want to study"

She got a point there, but I still worry about the future, I am usually the go-with-the-flow type, but I cant help worrying about this. Thinking about talking to the sponsorship officers about the sponsorship options and also some lecturers about this. But the thing is, am I even qualified for this kind of thing? Hm.

On an irrelevant note, I dont dare look at baby's pictures anymore, in case if it would make me miss him too much.

At least, I am sure of this future, will graduate from uni in less than a year.

Ha, been a long time since I have ideas to write. Ok, byebye.

p/s : Would appreciate some advice from friends too :)

See You No More

2010-04-07T00:05:00.004+08:00

It was a few times that I have been dreaming about baby.

In this one dream, I dreamt that baby came back to me. Not alone, bringing together a female cat (his wife) and two cute kittens. In that dream I was so happy for the reunion and also for the addition. The kittens were so cute.

But then a number of mad dogs came to us, growling, and obviously wanting to eat baby and his family. Seeing as baby is oblivious of the danger I tried very hard to keep baby and his family away from the dogs. But my priority is baby because there is no way that I'm gonna lose him again.

Then it ends abruptly.

It wasnt until a few hours after I woke up, it hit me that I failed saving my baby and I'll never see him again... Nangis nangis nangis nangis and nangis.. Gila sedeh :'[

p/s : I really really really miss you baby

I Will Never Leave You

2010-04-06T11:20:00.001+08:00

Style Baru

2010-03-22T00:39:00.005+08:00

Mari mencuba style tudung baru.. Cam burok jak.. Uh..

Bought the inner shawl from Nita~ and thanks to Najlaa for both testing shawls haha..

p/s : Saya budak baru belajar kalau salah tolong tunjukkan

Missing

2010-03-17T11:36:00.003+08:00

Posted this all around the neighbourhood. Been missing for 3 days already.

Baby come back please :'(

This Is Bad

2010-03-06T11:16:00.025+08:00

Bad Engrish

"omnivorously". Dont know what the person is really implying

Tommy Filfigrer

What else can I say?

Stuffs only oke, no people

Mayb they offer GRO services

I think this means "Your smile is on the camera"

:)

And this product is from the horny care services. Lol. Kidding2

"Warning : This product moves when used". Like duh

DUHHH

This one is my favourite. Haha

Very nice choice of words

Bad Signage Posts

"Bondage is prohibited"

"Burying people is prohibited"

"Feeding your child to the gators is prohibited"

"Groping is not allowed"

Bad Passport Name/Pictures

p/s : more on oddee.com and engrish.com

Confession

2010-03-02T13:49:00.002+08:00

My guilty pleasure for right now is..

Singing along korean's drama series You're Beautiful's soundtracks complete with korean lyrics when nobody is around. He..

p/s : I've watched the drama series 2x.

Maybe

2010-03-01T22:53:00.004+08:00

Maybe if I stop caring too much you would not be fed up with me

maybe if I just mind my own business I would not make you feel bad most of the time

maybe if I exercise more I'll feel less sick

maybe if I just expect higher before I'll be studying in anyplace overseas right now

maybe if I know what I want in life from the beginning I'll know what to do with my life

maybe if I don't follow the motto "go with the flow" I would be far off from where I am right now

Maybe.

Kesayangan

2010-02-27T11:33:00.000+08:00

Untuk kesayangan,

Semoga kita dapat menempuhi halangan yang mendatang bersama-sama, dan saling mencintai sehingga nafas terakhir.

Us, 2 years ago

Us, 27th February 2010

Selamat ulangtahun ke-2 kita bersama. :)

Still

2010-02-23T07:38:00.007+08:00

It takes only these words to scare a girl away, especially when you guys have just met;

"Are you horny? I know I am"

p/s : I've yet to come up with a clever reply to this. and its not my boyf oke. hahah.

Secret

2010-02-21T14:11:00.006+08:00

Tagged by Zima;

In this tag you have to talk everything about anyone that you like, which is :

Kamal Hafiz

1. apakah hubungan anda dengan dia?

Ah. It is complicated to explain. You guys don't tell him that I like him ok? Malu.

2. 5 impression terhadap dia?

He is selfless. Thinks of others first before thinking for himself

Funny and he likes to (isi tempat kosong) in front of me

Caring and loves cats

Wise and clever (and can get 4 flat if he study his ass off)

Wangieeeeeee

3. perkara yang paling memorable dia lakukan kepada awak?

Once we had a big argument, kinda my bad, but he still thinks of my safety and well-being first eventhough at that time we were not talking to each other

4. perkara yang paling memorable dia katakan pada awak?

"I want to have 10 kids"

5. kalau dia kekasih awak?

Em, this is tricky. Well, I'll treat him good :P

6. kalau dia jadi musuh awak?

How can you hate the person you like?

7. kalau dia kekasih awak, awak akan??

8. kalau dia jadi musuh awak mungkin kerana

Because I killed cats

9. overall impression tentang dia?

He's a breath of fresh air :) Cannot be found anywhere else

10. the most desirable thing to do to her/him

Pounce on him and....

No lah, I want to make him happy that's all

11. apakah awak rasa pandangan orang terhadap awak?

12.apakah sebenarnya perangai anda?

I like to sleep most of my free time I spend by sleeping. I am not kidding when I tell you my hobby is sleeping

13. perangai anda yang anda benci?

Procrastinate

14. orang yang anda ingin bersama

Kamal Hafiz

15. katakan sesuatu untuk orang-orang yang suka anda

No one likes me.

16. tag 4 orang

Kamal
Rose
Rafi
Syara

17. no 2 ada hubungan dengan siapa?

Dengan Rafi

18. no 3 lelaki atau perempuan?

Hm. I'm not sure

19. no 1 single kah?

No :P

20. no 4 belajar apa?
Belajar memasak

p/s : :P

Sob sob

2010-02-19T11:07:00.001+08:00

I dreamt of baby last night :'(

Rinduuuuuuuuuu

You're So Schweeet

2010-02-18T12:13:00.001+08:00

p/s : http://www.shoeboxblog.com/

Well, No I Won't

2010-02-18T00:53:00.006+08:00

And no sayang, I won't leave you just because you do stupid things in front of me <3 <3

p/s : http://www.shoeboxblog.com/

Goodbye

2010-02-15T02:56:00.002+08:00

Goodbye by Jang-Geun Suk

What should I do?
I am just watching you
I can’t even say a short farewell
You hold on to my cold hands
But now I have to send you away
What should I do?
You are going far away
My heart is filling with tears
Even though I try my best to hide it, I can’t
This heart I couldn’t catch

What should I do?
Don’t forget the memories we loved
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell
I am glad that it was you
Gathering all my sad tears
Good bye

There was nothing I’ve done for you
Sadly, only scars are left
The person who encompassed my changed heart
Now I have to send you away

What should I do?
Don’t forget the memories we loved
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell
I am glad that it was you
If the tears fall because it is so painful to endure

I am glad that it was you
My love that I can’t reach
Now I have to send you away
The only person that can make me laugh is you

Even if love is so deep and the heart hurts so much
Don’t forget the happy memories we shared
Even if you find another person that makes you smile
Even the painful farewell

I am glad that it was you
The thing that I could do with all my sad tears
Good bye

When words fail you, you can always turn to music. Always.

p/s : My blog is turning into a lyrics database.

You Are Beautiful

2010-02-12T11:06:00.001+08:00

Late Night Request

2010-02-10T12:43:00.004+08:00

Got this from Anis. Thank you Anis~~

Oh,sorrow, won't you flow out?
These tired veins have dried
This tired soul has burned out
Collect her
Bring her back here next to me
Cause I need her now
I need her touch so desperately
So go now, dont come till the night is done
And I will wait for you
Yeah I will wait for you

Oh distance,oh why wont you disappear?
This electric love is so tiring and so dear
Collect her, bring her back here next to me
Cause I need her now
Oh yeah I need her now
So go now, dont come till the job is done
And I will wait for you
Yeah I will wait for you...

p/s : This song is for you.

I Lost Him / Her

2010-02-09T18:22:00.002+08:00

Another one from http://killrocknroll.tumblr.com/ :P Best bah.

Boy:I saw her today…
Girl:I saw him today…
Boy:It seems like its been forever
Girl: I wonder if he still cares…
Boy:She looks better than before…
Girl: I couldn`t help but stare
Boy:I asked her how she was
Girl: I asked him about his new girlfriend
Boy: I`d choose her over any girl
Girl: He`s probably happy now
Boy:I couln`t look at her without thinking i would cry.
Girl: He couldn`t even look at me…
Boy:I told her I missed her…
Girl: He told me he missed me…
Boy: I meant it…
Girl: He didn`t mean it…
Boy:I love her
Girl: He loves her…
Boy: I held her
Girl: He gave me a friendly hug…
Boy: Then I went home and cried…
Girl: Then I went home and cried…
Boy: I lost her
Girl: I lost him
Boy: *Sigh*
Girl: *Sigh*

p/s : The moral of the story never assume so easily about things ok!

The Truth About Girls

2010-02-08T23:34:00.003+08:00

-We’re always right even when we’re wrong.

-We’ll never be too old for sleepovers.

-We must go to the bathroom in groups.

-We should never be used as objects.

-Sometimes is just quite never enough.

-“Fine” never means anything good.

-We are not ashamed of crying.

-Gossip isn’t a sin. It is an art.

-We have this thing called feelings - don’t hurt them

-Behind EVERY b**ch there’s a guy who made her that way

-Hoes over bros. no questions asked.

- we don’t wake up looking pretty..it takes time and effort. for most.

- we need girls nights OFTEN…

- we hold grudges and we never forget things you say to us that hurt

-It doesn’t matter who dumped who or why…whenever we see an ex with another girl , it will always bother us. not because we’re not over you but just because we know we used to be that girl

- Makeup can hide so many things from puffy eyes from crying to huge scars from a broken heart

- never ever ask a girl what she weighs, or imply anything about our weight being too much or too little, just don’t do it.

- our eyes are located in our heads. not our chest or a**. and when you’re not looking in our eyes… WE KNOW

-Our three favorite words: Let’s go shopping.

-We win the arguments.

-We love our best friends more than our boy friends.

-We create drama.

-We forgive but don’t forget.

-“Luv ya” isn’t the same as “love you”.

-We love to cuddle.

-If you take our chocolate, we will get ugly.

-Never mess with us while we’re PMSing.

-We love the little things.

-We travel in packs.

-My heels may look hot but they hurt like crap.

-We are never to old to play “dress up".

Took this from http://killrocknroll.tumblr.com/

p/s : Why do I feel that most of my posts lately can be categorized as sexist. Hm

Signs

2010-02-06T19:49:00.003+08:00

My friend's status msg on his fb inspired me to post this;

5 Signs You're Headed Toward a Breakup (taken from Yahoo!)

1. You stop relationship-building behaviors.

In the honeymoon stage of a relationship, which we all know is the first 90 days of pure bliss, you are learning about each other and making efforts to create romantic moods and nice evenings. When you're in that stage, you are really working at building your relationship. Then, at some point, you start to butt heads with each other. Critical relationship elements deteriorate. Maybe you stop kissing each other goodbye or stop texting each other during the day. Instead of adding things to the relationship, you start to resent each other like two five-year-olds who stop sharing their crayons. This is a breakup point.

2. You don't understand each other anymore.

The fighting escalates to a place where you no longer feel like you're understood by your partner. Physical intimacy stops, communication stops, and you are living like roommates. You're at the point in the relationship where you are trying to understand each other, but you get so frustrated because you feel like you just don't understand each other anymore. This is a breakup point.

3. You start punishing each other.

When you get to the point of no longer understanding each other, what happens is that you end up just kind of coexisting in the new dynamic. Resentment builds and you get in your head too much. You are no longer about feelings, and you start punishing each other. "Well, he hasn't done this for me, so I'm not going to do this for him" are the kind of thoughts that take root. The longer you stay in that dynamic and the further away you get from the dynamic you had during the early part of the relationship, the less likely it is that you'll ever get it back (and, after a point, you won't). You have hit the breakup point.

4. You fight less.

When you get to the breakup point, you actually fight less with your partner. You fight less because in your mind and heart you start detaching yourself from the other person, and you don't care as much anymore. You have already made a determination that they don't understand you, that they will never understand you, and that the relationship just won't work out. The minute you get into a fight, you just walk away from it. That is a sure sign that you are at the breakup point.

5. You've taken the time to think it through.

When you think you might have hit that breakup point, you must tell the person that you're disconnecting from them. You need to be honest and raw. If you don't think the relationship is going to work, or you know you've already disconnected based on how things have been going, then you might want to consider walking away for a week. When you're in the thick of things, they never seem to be able to work out.

So, whatdya think? True or not? :P

p/s : This post has nothing to do with anyone, regardless live or dead.

When the world fails you,

2010-02-02T13:00:00.002+08:00

you'll be missing them the most. :'(

This Is So Not Healthy

2010-01-31T19:53:00.007+08:00

You study, graduate first class, found the one, get your dream job, get married, build a family, work your ass off for lots of money, grow old.

Then what?

p/s : Google should ban stalkers from googling other people's names. It's not healthy

Ku Takkan Di Sini Selamanya

2010-01-30T11:22:00.004+08:00

Manukan Island, 2009

Mother : Why dont you bring Kamal along with us for the next vacation?

p/s : I wonder what that means :)

Kau Harus Ada

2010-01-27T19:04:00.000+08:00

Lost my inspiration;

Lelah parut senyum dah jemu
Metafora cair bertemu
Rasa itu ini sementara
Ku takkan di sini selamanya
Rugi jika sendiri
Hanyut jika sendiri

Kau harus ada
Kau harus ada dimana tempat ku berada
Kau harus ada
Kau harus ada bersamaku

Rasa itu ini sementara
Ku takkan di sini selamanya
Rugi jika sendiri
Hanyut jikaku sendiri

I Go

2010-01-25T21:50:00.004+08:00

I really like this song right now, you have no idea how much!

So long, fare thee well
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
So turn down this bed of stone
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong
The long December rain is falling now
Running down on streets to nowhere
Music is my life – you’re my sweetest nightingale
But I can’t hear it here no more
And I go
I go
Hush now, dont shake or break
Words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face

p/s : Thank you

Liar liar pants on fire

2010-01-25T09:42:00.004+08:00

It's free period (930am)

Back to reality, back to utp. Utp's LAN internet connection still sucks more than assholes suckers out there. Cannot sign in to any instant messaging, YM, MSN (mcm lah sign msn lagik), Gtalk, Skype, nada, nil. But then access to the other websites is better, I think. Spent the first few days in Shah Alam and arrived at utp on saturday. Been missing home the minute I boarded the flight to KLIA. I miss mother, father, my siblings, my babies (bobo and tam-tam), friends, and the foooooddd.

And it is my final year, I am still not used to juniors calling me 'kakak'. Think I'll ask them not to call me kakak next time (I'm forever 17).

But but but... the best thing this semester is 90% of my housemates are Sarawakians! Kenaknya xbest oh??!! Still, it is not the same as home, home is heaven compared to utp. Now now don't deny it I know it is true. And and and.... my friends said that I look slimmer. Hahahaha suk aie. It means that I'm not 'short and chubby' like my sis's friend commented. Dah gik eh. Inggarrr aku

Tido2

p/s : I realized that I lied a lot lately :(

Taggity Tag Tag Tag

2010-01-23T08:56:00.004+08:00

is it too late for me to do this tag? haha..

Tagged by Amal

Nahhh ni aku punya gamba black n white~ Taken from my fb photo collections (edited sket)

p/s : Rasa best sangat bila dapat jumpa si dia <3

Perbezaan

2010-01-09T23:08:00.008+08:00

Cinta zaman budak-budak

sanggup belanja RM5 untuk beli set surat dan sampul yang berbunga-bunga dan tulis ayat cintan-cintan lepas tu letak dalam desk dia (masa tu duit poket sehari hanya RM2-RM3), siap letak perfume ibu atau bedak wangi supaya surat tu berbau wangi
mula-mula malu nak jumpa, bila dah jumpa tak tahu nak borak pasal apa
berbalas-balas surat padahal masa tu sama sekolah takpun sama kelas
tidur ditemani gambar si dia

Cinta zaman remaja

dah tahu erti borak-borak serba sedikit dengan si dia
bila rasa tak serasi, cari orang lain yang lebih serasi dan tinggalkan si dia untuk orang lain tu :P
dah ada telefon mudah alih, sudah mula berjinak-jinak dengan sistem pesanan ringkas
belum dapat lagi untuk bertelefon sesuka hati sebab duit terhad untuk beli 'top-up'
kalau nak telefon, telefon guna talian tetap dirumah sampai kena bayar RM1k. (ibu bapa yang kena bayar) LOL

Cinta zaman dewasa :P

sudah ada duit masuk setiap bulan, maka boleh bertelefon 2-3 kali setiap minggu (itu pun kalau jauh antara satu sama lain)
sudah tahu erti membeli hadiah yang mahal-mahal untuk si dia. jam 'Guess', Perfume
setia dengan si dia untuk masa yang lama berbanding dengan zaman sebelumnya (dan moga berkekalan selama nya, Amin)
sudah boleh berpacaran ke bandar kerana sudah ada lesen kereta dan untuk orang-orang yang bertuah, kereta
sudah membuat perancangan untuk hari perkahwinan, atau berapa orang anak yang dikehendaki, tempat berbulan madu, etc.

p/s : harus menempuhi 14 hari lagi sebelum berjumpa si dia!!

Wonderwall

2010-01-07T23:36:00.003+08:00

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall <3

p/s : less than 20 days to go to see him

Once upon a time there was a bully,

2010-01-03T09:51:00.010+08:00

During primary school;

- I pinched this one boy's ear so hard that his ear became blazing red and I think the color lasted for a few days.

- The same boy got me mad this one time and I went straight to his class (we were in different classes), I emptied his drinking water onto his desk and got all his schoolbooks soaked with water. I didnt even look back after that.

- I got mad with another boy, (we were in the same class) I moved his desk outside the class, with books, his bag and all.

- I punched a boy and made the boy cry (this one I dont remember, told by mother).

That is all I can remember. I hope that is all. I really hope there's no one else that I bully.

So my point is, don't ever bully people unless it is really necessary. haha and to the guys that I bullied, I am very very sorry (if ever they read this), let bygones be bygones k?

p/s : I still do bullying kecil-kecilan.

two oh one oh

2009-12-31T09:32:00.008+08:00

let us do our yearly routine shall we?

this year's res;

-to complete my prayers five times a day Not Check!! :(
-to be in the dean's list Not check also :((

-to be a less agressive driver Check!! I think so

-to stop stereotyping, or judge people easily Check~

and the long awaited cliche.. the new years res;

-sekda resolutions!! hahahaha.. ive decided to go with the flow LOL see what's in store for me in 2010

and recapping the last ten years that ive been living (got this idea from Ejant (kamek tiru post kitak ejant makseh) and Rose)
2000
Sat the UPSR examination and as everybody expected I got 5As not a big deal anyway. Was in a puppy love with a classmate. Formed a gang called Gengster Mayat. poyossssiallll.. :P

And oh, broke my front tooth a bit because I fell head first onto the tiled canteen floor and lucky me the tooth made contact with the tile first not my nose. (I jumped from one canteen table to another because apparently at that time I thought I'm a monkey)

2001
Entered Kolej D.P.A.H Abdillah, "1 Biru" was my class. The class monitor is Taufiq who at that time is cute (at least to me). First time meeting friends like Dena, Pyah, Preq, Rezal and the others. The store at the back of the class was our favourite place to hang out although it was stuffy and small.

Stayed in the hostel and met my roommates, Eppy, Siti and the others. It was my first time staying in hostel and mother had to come like twice a week to collect my laundry and iron my uniforms. Hehe. But I still felt homesick and cried in the toilet for the first few weeks LOL.

2002
"2 Biru" Sat beside Florida and we had fun because all we did was fool around in the class bullying people. Because we laughed and talked so much, we didnt even pay attention to the teachers, we were told to get out from the class and to stand outside by our Geography teacher but we sneaked junkfoods out and sat on the cement floor and happily demolished the junkfoods while the others have to bear with the boredom in class.

Fell in "love" with Rezal, my friend also my classmate. Didnt last long tho because I was so fickle that I fell in "love" yet again with a senior. Lupak dah namanya LOL

And also the "tragedy" hahaha. Crying on the staircase and all...Kimennn I still feel like swearing everytime I remembered THAT time. Sapa2 tauk diam jak.

2003
Burrrr..THE PMR. Not that bad tho, considering that I still dont take my studies seriously. Got 7As and 1B. Got B for the Agama paper. Yala, Agama paper was easy peasy yada yada yada at least to you guys but for me it was the most difficult subject to score even for B. Mayb its my punishment for bullying people too much.

And not forgetting I was the class monitor weeeweee weeee hahahaha.. And it's the first time that I'm in the same class with Nora.

Oh I changed my boyfriend already, my boyfriend at that time was K-Jeman. Thought he was handsome at that time (urgh he's actually not that handsome) but by the end of the year he cheated on me! Padan muka aku for being so fickle the previous year. I literally bawled when I knew he cheated on me but then I got over it pretty quickly.

2004
Selected as the Operations Manager for the PUM school club (PUM stands for Persatuan Usahawan Muda), so was busy doing extra curricular activities and not forgetting busy bullying the English teacher, Miss Nadiah (I will remember her until the day I die because Nora and I skipped her class more than we attend them)

And this year also I felt like having lots of extra curricular certs is very important to get into the university (besides good grades) so I joined not only the PUM club, but also the Kelab Pelancongan, the Choir Club, Taekwondo activities..

This year was when I first got to know Aziz "the boy next door" coz he's from the class next to ours. LOL had a crush on him for the rest of the year.

2005
Aziz and I declared officially this year. Was soooo happy not only because I was in the same class with my besties (excluding one) but also I had the best boyfriend ever, at least, at that time.

Entered the state's competition for PUM clubs all over the state. Our team won and was automatically selected to represent the state for the national's. When we arrived at UPM for the competition I was like "we are shit compared to the others from the other states!" but still we did our best tho. And it was fun. Spend the rest of the trip at KL. Spend most of the time with Fareez and Afreeda, and got close with Fareez even after we got back to Kuching. Until now (kinda).

SPM!! I think it was one of my most depressing times. Lost of weight and the haggard look are no strangers during the exam. I remembered that I studied Add Maths non-stop for a few hours. Started to take flu pills just to make myself sleep and to avoid the anxiety for the coming exam.

2006
Got SPM result this year; 6A1s, 2A2s, and 3B3s.. And who can guess what paper I got B3.......

Thought when I got over the SPM exam I am free but how wrong I was and I have no idea that I was binding myself when I signed the contract with Petronas. Tho I SHOULD be thankful that at least I get steady allowance and all that.

First time set foot in UTP I was like, "where the hell was the beautiful buildings that they bragged about?" (our educamp was in MRSM Kuching) :P

Grabbed every opportunity to enjoy myself, who cares about the tests, quizzes, exams, assingments? :P Did lots and lots of shopping.

Was in a long-distance relationship with Aziz and it got hard when he was in the National Service because I could only contact him on the weekends. I remembered the huge row about how I was being so selfish and not caring about him at all. It was a hard time.

And we broke up at the end of the year. What a tragic way to end the year. Huh

2007
Started the first year for Civil Engineering. The studies got harder but I still havent realized that I need to be more serious about my studies. Still got time to go to Ipoh, watch movies and shopping.

Havent got over Aziz yet and was still depressed especially during holidays or when I was not surrounded by friends. Still depending on flu pills and at times, on sleeping pills.

Got myself into trouble by associating with some seniors. At that time, I thought my roomate hated me, my bestfriend hated me.. Felt really down but the senior was like an out for my situation at that time. Therefore it was pretty hard when I had to let him go.

My hero came and made me see sense so that I dont get into trouble anymore. Yeay!~~ :P

This year was a complete mess up.

2008
Boyfriend and me officially declared in February. Finally found my happiness back. :)

Started my second year of study, study got harder and I got more serious in study but still slacking in terms of results :(

Got closer with classmates, I think because of the study trips and the group work for assignments :)

Went lots and lots of outings with classmates; celebrate Eid's at Rafi's house went bowling and karaoke after. and yes we were in our baju kurungs (for the ladies). who the hell cares? hehe

2009
Already in my third year of study. Started the Engineering Team Project. We took the easy way by doing the project that our seniors have already done. Got only B for it :(

Prepared for industrial training. And with father's help got placement at Zecon Berhad. Placed at the Matang Site office for the Matang Highway Project. before i joined Zecon I had no idea that I am going to join a highway project not construction.

First time have to be independent, do things without boyfriend :( Felt so lonely at first but got used to it after a few months.

Hehe but happy all the same :)

Sekian terima kasih. Thats all, xie xie ni, arigatou, kotohuadan!

Happy New Year!

p/s : have to perah all my brain juice to remember back.

Pergi

2009-12-26T00:04:00.001+08:00

Sayu terpisah
Hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
Berhembus angin rindu
Begitu nyamannya terhidu wangian kasihmu

Hujan lebat mencurah kini
Bagaikan tiada henti
Kaulah laguku kau irama terindah
Tak lagi kudengari
Kau pergi

Sepi tanpa kata
Terdiam dan kaku tak daya kau kulupa
Apa pun kata mereka
Biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia

Congratulations and Celebrations

2009-12-24T12:04:00.004+08:00

Kid sister got straight As for her PMR (the first in the family LOL). So proud of her :') and she wanted a piano as her PMR presie. recommended her the breast enhancement ringtone but she said she'd settle with her own originals for now. so,

*dig into the soil to find some gold to buy the piano*

Anyways, congratulations Irah! <3

p/s : I got straight As for PMR too... straight As and one B.

Deadlines.

2009-12-19T11:10:00.008+08:00

I am de-stressing. Fuh fuh *takes deep breathes*

Just to remind myself (and others as well);

Bored Pile Report - 98% done
Site Assignment - next week - 0%
Logbook - 5th Jan - 70%
Presentation slides - 5th Jan - nil. nada% (!!)
Final report - 24th Jan - nil. nada% (!!)
Part time work - 19th Jan - nil. nada% !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and not forgetting moving over to a new apartment which includes lots of cleaning, packing, unpacking, and stuffs.

on a happier note, I still got time to go meronggeng and lots of sleep on the weekends <3

p/s : got my nails coloured in purple, mayb next time green or yellow. i <3.

and i like using this <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

There's no other word for this

2009-12-14T10:55:00.002+08:00

Preoccupied without you

I cannot live at all

My whole world surrounds you

I stumble then I crawl.

You could be my someone

You could be my scene

You know that I'll protect you

From all of the obscene

I wonder what you're doing?

Imagine where you are?

There's ocean in between us

But that's not very far.

Satellite Heart

2009-12-11T22:36:00.008+08:00

So pretty, so smart
Such a waste of a young heart
Don't you see what's wrong, can't you get it right?
Out of mind, and out of sight

"nenek kakeh, how did you meet nenek kebayan?"

"nenek kakeh, do you love us?"

"nenek kakeh, what is your fav food?"

"nenek kakeh, what do you like to do during ur free time?"

"nenek kakeh, tell me some stories about your police days."

"nenek kakeh, lets go have a walk at the beach."

"nenek kakeh, when is your birthday?"

"nenek kakeh, i love you."

there are so many things to ask you or tell you nenek, and we dont even get the chance to know you better.

you see, since nenek kebayan and nenek kakeh lived separately, the times that we visited nenek kakeh can be counted. sometimes when we went back during the holidays we seldom visited him since he lived with his other children from the second wife. but still, he's our gramps and i regretted for not making the effort to visit him more often. i am not blaming anyone for this, but this is how the situation was. and what saddens me most is that i cant recite even the Al-Fatihah for him because he was a non-muslim.

the last time we visited nenek kakeh in the hospital he said, "i am just waiting for the darkness to come"

i never realized it really was the last time i see him.

so. never ever take the people u love for granted, bcoz if u do, u'll realize one day it is already too late for anything.

p/s : nenek kakeh is in kadazan dusun means grandfather.

Possibility

2009-12-08T21:24:00.004+08:00

There's a possibility
All that I had was all I'm gonna get

There's a possibility
All I'm gonna get is gonna be yours then

So tell me when you hear my heart stops
You're the only one who knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There's a possibility I wouldn't know

Know that when you leave
By blood and by me you walk like a thief
By blood and by me, and I fall when you leave

So tell me when my silence is over
You are the reason why I'm closed
Tell me when you hear me falling
There's a possibility it wouldn't show

p/s : dunno what my problem is, but i'm back to pills :((

Screw Bella

2009-12-04T14:20:00.004+08:00

fav Facebook wall photo of the day.

p/s : cdt to Wes Ramsey for the photo

Untuk renungan,

2009-12-02T14:05:00.010+08:00

a conversation between me and my supervisor the other day;

SV : it will be a few more years before i want to settle down and start a family.

me : why? ure old enough to start a family. i mean ure already 24 and have a job. if i were you i will be thinking of settling down already. in fact i am already thinking of marrying early (haha abes la ko kamal). why do i feel differently?

SV : u're still studying that's why. wait until u join the working world one day, u will understand. i want something more than settling down and starting a family. i want to focus on my job first, gain more experience in the civil engineering works, collect some money, buy a house, car... thennnn i will think of settling down.

me : owwww.... (speechless - she got a point)

u know, although she is just a few years older than me i have to admit that sometimes she is wiser than most people her age or even the older people. what she said had made me think. hehe. well, honestly to my opinion, if u have found the one, why wait? (other than the money factor) :PP i am sooo old-fashioned i knowww. nowadays who wants to marry early? only edward cullen and bella swan. huh. i had too much of twilight.

....but then come to think of it, there are so many things that i want to do before settling down. LOL

anyways, lets wait a few years, then we will see how i still feel about settling down early eh?

p/s : ending new moon tergantung! and nur kasih dah habis!

it's just rocket science

2009-12-01T08:17:00.017+08:00

i love holidays!!! ...but the part when the holiday ends just sucks. i still cant get enough of sleep, food, and reruns of the nanny.

some pics from kampong.

yes, i stalked this cow (?) sapi in english apa? haha

i stalked this cat too. i named her miumiu
and we went to Manukan Island last week.

"Taman Tunku Abdul Rahman, Pulau Manukan"

culik slipper Rose!. haha. sis's

'sunbathing'

and when we arrived home last night, my baby looked like he has gained some weight.

the before picture

the after picture, bobo showing his booty

for the first time ever in my life last night, i felt like i dont want to go back to kuching coz i like it better in kk and kota marudu! huhu!

and Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone.

p/s : wish boyf was there to share the fun.

LOL

2009-11-16T13:54:00.000+08:00

this clip made my day.

Kotak hati

2009-11-16T09:33:00.010+08:00

i had to let them go. i had no choice. father insisted on sending them away because he said keeping them was too much of a hassle. i dont think they burden me. not at all. not when i love them so much. the mother had been living with us for more than a year already. she's practically family. but we have to part. my father wont keep her any longer. i vowed to myself that if by next year no one wants to adopt her yet i'll take her back. yes, i'll do that. even if i have to pay hundred of bucks for her. ive been missing her so much and been dreaming about her. sob3. u guys take care of yourselves now k. i'll be visiting and bring ur favourite food..fresh fishes. no more running around chasing each other for them. no more yummy food. only cat's biscuits. hu.

on a happier note, we'll be going back to Kota Marudu this wednesday to visit our nenek kebayan. cant wait. will be taking 2 weeks off from practical training.

it is 9.51am and i already browse through the net for pizza hut's delivery service. blergh. when will i stop eating like a pig i myself dont know.

Huuuu i miss Rio.

i dedicate this song to her.

i think i'll be depressed for at least a few days before i can get over this.

dah bye.

p/s: oh yea, 2012 is the bomb. like literally the bomb. totally movie of the year.

Over the weekend

2009-11-11T14:26:00.016+08:00

Bako National Park (chronology-ed);

in the boat. on the way to the Bako National Park jetty. was quite skalo coz having never seen the life of the sea people. :P

arrived at the jetty. i dunno what we were thinking bringing those bulky stuffs jungle trekking but we managed. haha. we dont really expect to walk that much (more than 4km) thats why u can see Wira only with shirt, shorts and slippers. lucky me and Nadia packed our shoes. just in case :P

we stopped for a while on this flat rocky surface of what i think is a large boulder before reaching the beach below. i was never a person to really stop and appreciate how beautiful the nature is but this is the one time that i feel speechless just looking down at the scenery. ok. mayb im exaggerating a bit. lol

and the beach was oh so beautiful. we had fun. pity i didnt bring spare clothes so i was not able to join the others swimming. we put our things beside a shallow stream and the water from the stream is pleasently cool and u can practically lie in it without getting drowned.

stopped for a while at the ledge next to the beach before heading back to the jetty. the trip was very refreshing and i wud certainly want to come back to this place (but must train stamina first) and the fact that i got sunburn and feel sore the next day is negligible. XD we didnt camwhore much on the way back to the jetty because we were very tired at that point that we barely talk to each other during the jungle trekking.

and oh ive came up with this list;
important things to bring when u go jungle trekking and beaching:
1. mosquito repellant (lotion or liquid or spray). this is a must bring item especially when u plan to stay overnight in the jungle
2. lots and lots of food and also mineral water
3. 2 pairs of spare clothes and underwears
4. spare socks
5. flip-flops
6. sun-block
7. towels
8. toiletries
9. tissues
10. swimming outfits

and yes, if i were left alone with no civilization around i dunno if i can survive or not. i am no robinson crusoe ok. :P

--

Bahasa Sarawak Dictionary
skalo - never seen something and when u actually see it u act like, eeeeee... oooohhh.. aaaaahh... over-amazed la senang crita or over reacted :P

p/s : pictures courtesy of Nasmee.

We will not grow old

2009-11-09T08:51:00.003+08:00

spent the weekend in the jungle, appreciating the nature (and feeling sore all over after the trip)

will post the pics later <3

Derita merindu

2009-11-05T10:56:00.002+08:00

Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya

Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa

Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu

Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
jikalau setiap hari merindu

Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia

Aku pilih derita

Take me away

2009-11-04T22:27:00.007+08:00

now i remembered why i wanted to be heartless in the first place. to rip my heart out and throw it away just so that i wont have to feel anything.

what wud you do if the crutch that has been supporting you, that makes u strong and not fall apart for all this while has gone? the only thing that supports u when the waves of pain come crashing down on you from all sides.. gone? altho u know it cant take the strain any longer and u still use it coz its all u got left and before u know it... its gone? what wud you do?

i never meant to cause you trouble. i never meant for it to be this way.

im doing the usual. give me a couple of pills and i'll sleep it off

call me a coward for not wanting to face it. go on. go ahead and call me a coward

Knock knock

2009-11-04T14:25:00.008+08:00

things that are dangerous to your savings account (from the most dangerous to the least dangerous) :

1. online shop
2. internet
3. free time
4. online banking

anyhu. since its the in thing now, i figured that i should(maybe should is a loose term :P) buy a few of those colorful shawls and to change my appearance a bit - earth colored shirt, black tudung, blue or brown jeans or on the days when i feel a bit good about myself - shirt with a bit more colors, black shawl (yeah, i know, black is the easiest color to match clothes with), blue and brown jeans

after lots and lots of onlineshop hopping, i finally found some pretty cool shawls at Beau Bargain Online Shop. i chose this shop to make my first ever online purchase (yes... im a bit late on these IT stuffs) coz its organized, mentions clearly the material of the shawl - i have to know what material the thing is coz usually i dont bother to do some complicated tudung arrangement and it has to be easy to wear and also bcoz most of the shawls are prettier and have varieties of shawl to choose from (i dont really like the complicated flowery designed shawl except that if its pretty enough to have me liking it). come visit Beau Bargain~ (promote sikit)

and so today, bcoz i have free time (i always have free time these days) i bought shawls again.

i fell in love with the polka dot shawl the first time i laid my eyes on its pic. with no hesitation i submitted the order form straightaway :P

this one is nice too. to add to my collection of shawls which is not much, to say the least. pictures courtesy of Beau Bargain

i spent a lot of time browsing thru those online shop but have only made three online purchases so far. as for clothes, i dont really prefer buying clothes online bcoz afraid that it might not fit me. i am picky like that.

let us ngesep, girls

--

Bahasa Sarawak Dictionary
ngesep - dress up, to dress up, dressing up

moderation

2009-11-03T16:27:00.002+08:00

tadaaaa!

so whaddya think? since ive got the extra time in office, i decided to change the layout. and spent a great deal of the evening bcoz of this. to add the original widgets back to the page and all.

will try other blogger templates later on also.. if i have the time. i am a busy woman u know

aku chenta

2009-11-01T19:19:00.002+08:00

TGIF!

2009-10-30T09:16:00.006+08:00

(Thank God Its Friday!)

is showing more skin makes a woman hot??

a bit of cleavage, showing off her long legs, or even, flashing a bit of her boobs, or a bit (maybe more) of the navel show makes a woman hottttt??

enlighten me please people. apa sebenarnya definition hot ya. aku sik paham lah

p/s : addicted to chipsmore! (chipsmore = calories more)

p/p/s : still havent started on my exercise regime yet. how la like this?

--
updated.

Kesian Katrina :'(

sdeh nyaaa.... :'((

(eventho i already know what is the ending, if Katrina will die or not, which she will be.... oops...... terima kasih kepada enoi for providing the full synopsis of nur kasih haha...)

nur kasih

2009-10-27T10:49:00.015+08:00

i think im addicted to this drama series (who doesnt?). hoho
nah. layan while u read the rest of the post~

introducing the main characters;

Nur Amina

a kind-hearted woman but also strong considering what she has to go through for more than 4 years, living without anyone to depend on, without her parents or her so-called husband, only her bestfriend Nabila. despite all the things that she has been through she managed to finish her study in architecture. i think she is too soft towards her husband, letting her husband get his way. if i were her i wudve given up on Adam the minute he went back to Australia. (jahat2)
the actor:Tiz Zaqyah. she looks better wearing tudung kan.

Adam Hassan
Adam, a spoiled lad in his younger years, was never an obedient son. but nevertheless faithful to his steady girlfriend in Australia, Katrina. left Nur to go back to Australia and married Katrina. came back to his senses after a tragic accident killing his only son with Katrina. resided permanently in Malaysia and tried to win Nur's heart back. lalala i was estatic at first when they got back together but never factored Katrina back into the equation :O
the actor:Remy Ishak. hm, not that handsome in my opinion, the face of a typical malay guy. whats with the flowery shirt anyway? (ok mayb i dont like this character much because he cheated on Nur :P)

Katrina Anne Carlson
Adam's steady girlfriend. was in the same college with him in Oz. lead a very 'non-malay' way of life when they were in college, and i totally love her accent btw. got depressed after the tragic accident resulting in her terrible state. got into fights with Adam and eventually left him when she found out about Nur. pity cant find any of her pictures wearing covered hijab from the latest episodes :P
the actor:Sharifah Sofea. she's bootylicious. one of the hot babes in Malaysia. even boyfriend kinda have a crush on her bcoz of her body. yala2, i know im too skinny to have a hot bod like that.

Aidil Hassan
he is also one of the victims in this story. loved Nur in the early of the story but accepted his father's decision of marrying his brother to Nur instead. although he knew that Nur must be alone when left behind by Adam, he never once confessed of his feeling for Nur. also kind-hearted like Nur. a very obedient son unlike his rebellious brother.
the actor:Fizz Fairuz. i think he's more handsome than Remy Ishak. saw him once in a comedy sitcom but he looked like he doesnt belong there. well, mayb ive got this image of him being Aidil only.

and last but not least, Siti Sarah
urgh she is the most annoying character in this story. a manipulator, always try to manipulate her way to get what she wants and she also doesnt care about her sister. she's totally the opposite of Nur. a bit childish n spoiled.
the actor:Umi Nazeera. i think the producer finds actors with nice names on purpose kan. all of them have fancy names. anyway from what i heard Umi Nazeera and Remy Ishak is in a relationship (correct me if im wrong). i think she is a great actor coz it must be hard to be Siti Sarah since she have to throw tantrums and cry and scream a lot. :P

cant wait for the next episode! i bet Katrina will be sick and she will die and Adam n Nur will live happily ever after. lalala

p/s : got my first ever part-time job! yahu

you know you are fat when

2009-10-26T07:51:00.003+08:00

-you have to have soft drinks everyday
-your meal time is more than 4 times a day
-you always have stash of junk foods kept to snack on when you feel like it (which is often)
-you have that excess fat overflowing around the band of your pants
-you have to suck in your belly when wearing baby tee or fitted clothings so that the 'bump' wont be obvious
-you prefer to wear loose clothings
-sleeping is your favourite past time, even when you are working, you always feel sleepy, and on weekends you sleep more than 12 hours a day
-you only have to climb a few flights of steps but you are already panting

So from now on, im gonna start exercising again! Yosh!
(just not today....or tomorrow...or the day after tomorrow....)

Rest In Peace

2009-10-24T21:03:00.004+08:00

tho u have been gone for almost a year. u are always in my heart and u will always be the best pet i have ever had (sleep with me at night, never poops in the house, always.. always use the toilet where she's supposed to, the prettiest cat ever). i miss you so much memek... i hope u are happy wherever you are now... and i dont have any pictures of her...because her pictures were in the stolen laptop... just this one... huhu

mimpi

2009-10-23T07:44:00.004+08:00

saya mimpi saya dpt pointer 3.9!! hahahahahahaha memang berbunga-bunga hati dan sgt gumbira.

(moga2 dimakbulkan mimpi tersebut, amin.)

things men should know about women

2009-10-21T12:12:00.009+08:00

why do women cant get enough of clothes, shoes, bags, accesories...etc...?
its a natural thing for women to want to feel beautiful, hence all the things that they think can make them look better, and nicer. and its retail therapy that can make them (at least) happy (other than food and friends and boyf). dont tell me u dont like seeing women dressing up. and screw the "cinta itu buta" and "its the inside that matters not the look" crap.. admit it, looks matter too (at least in the beginning).

why do women have to be such control freaks?
fyi, the term control freak is suitable only for certain people only, not all women are control freaks but i bet its hard to find a girl who dont take most matters seriously and dont give a damn about almost everything. women want to feel secure and sure of things. so do understand if something u regard as simple, become unecessarily complicated bcoz of women

why do women say one thing, but actually means another?
ok i admit, that some women are straightforward therefore easier for you to handle right? but for the others they prefer to opt for subtlety. hoping that their other half would understand them (OTHER HALF bah... duhhh) and anyway sometimes they just dont want to hurt u guys knowing that the truth is not really what u want to hear.

why do women say themselves fat and ugly and a bitch and all those stuff, but when other people say the same thing about them, they freak out or they get all emo? and what do they expect us to say when they ask us if they are fat or not? or if they look good or not?
in answering the latter, i would guess that most women would want their other half to say that they are beautiful, pretty, this, that... because women like compliments. even if sometimes they dont show it, admit it, everyone feels at least a teeny bit flattered when people compliment them right? so guys, even when she's in her worst hair day, just tell her that to you, she's still pretty, she'll appreciate that. and, who doesnt feel offended when people say bad things about them? saying it ourselves is totally a different thing.

what do women want in a relationship?
overall, what women will want most in a relationship is commitment, honesty and communication. honestly without these i dont really think the relationship will last long (but then again, who am i to argue). but based on the examples that i have seen all around me, lack of one of the three things will not do for a good relationship. and oh, guys, if your woman have said that she doesnt mind u not doing all the romantic stuff, sometimes she will want to see the romantic side of u, she will want to do romantic stuffs once in a while, my point is, u cant always take literally what ur woman tell you. the most important thing is that us women sometimes dont speak out loud what we want so thats ur job to figure out what we want, its not that hard to figure out, mayb she already hinted or something :PPP (again, OTHER HALF bahhh)
i already give some hints kan sayang >0<

so far that is all i can think of, haha. any objections whatsoever? :P

p/s : a respond to this :)

starstrukkk

2009-10-19T08:21:00.006+08:00

for illustration purpose only

the pros and cons of dating older men;

pros:
1. u get to hang out with his friends and u wud look cool hanging out with older people (provided that his friends ARE cool)
2. he's got more money than u (provided that he secured a job)

cons:
1. his friends will treat u like a 7 year old kid because u are too young to hang out with them (provided that his friends rasa cool)
2. u cant fit in his circle of friends because of the age gap
3. he's moving on too fast in the relationship
4. he will think that he's more matured than u and therefore will feel superior or think that he is always right and ure always wrong

okay, mayb im a bit biased here but i cant think of any more advantages of dating older men so if u want to add some more, u r welcomed to do that. this is strictly just my point of view. :P

anyhoos. this is Tambi, one of the kittens. we call her Tambi coz her fur is black-ish

we fold her ears so that she looks like an elf. nya polah muka bodoe jak >_<

p/s : i suppose in Kuching smoking is a 'cool' thing to do even for the ladies.